a piece of mind ..

now time has been moving by quite quickly and life has been getting even move hectic. i dont work well under pressure and thats all i've been under. fourth of july brought plenty laughs. i was with my sister and godsister, COMPLETE opposites by funny when together .. and then we met my maya. she's crazyyyyyyy. mommy took us up hechinger mall to see the fireworks and then we went uptown to see some more. 1-4 zone doesn't play! man i definitely know the difference between gunshots and fireworks lol .. thennnnn at like 1am, we went home. now technically it wasnt fourth of july anymore but that didnt stop us from going back outside. people around 51st NEVER stop their celebration soooo the fireworks continued. davon from XIB came through, he's too funny! and then some unexpected visitors crept up on us .. which led to me getting shot! im okay but that shit is no joke whats so ever. but ima thug so you know me .. i kept on moving. well i woke up at 1pm and went to granpa's house. we had crabs, clams, muscles and lots of cookout food. i was complete after that :) yummy. but ugh after that, i had the biggest mood swing. my attitude changed, i was pissed at everyone so i kirked on everyone. i had no remorse for anyone .. thats just not me. i have an attitude problem and a cursing addiction. that'll change one day but clearly not one day soon. i really miss darnell, he always knew how to calm me down. and jeffery just made a better situation out of anything. and my babe, man how i wish we were still together .. but that doesnt stop me from smiling. he still makes me smile :) and i still take advantage of that. whew! well that felt good to get off of my chest. peace, love and hair grease ♥ im going to sleep and i'll blog later. sooooo LATER!