Impossible to IGNORE ..

ugh, time to face my demons. i always kinda thought that if i didnt talk about things, they would disappear. well .. i was wrong. sierra has no idea about the pain i endured with ad. it wasnt the worst, but it definitely didnt feel good. lets just say i was emotionally connected to the fool. we was close, and a sweet talker he is indeed. but everything wasnt bad, we had great times together. i have no regrets, never did .. never will. he was like my bestfriend, i pretty much told him everything .. just as i did with his family. but whatever happened to us, it happened for the better. we ended our relationship with him tellin me how he was back with sierra, the girl he'd been talking to since he was in eighth grade. i was crushed but i respected that A LOT. he had someone that was there and loved him unconditionally. he just showed me that there is someone for everyone, he just wasnt the one for me. i can accept that. i always thought i was mature but even my mom has seen the difference, he made me grow all the way up. its not my job but i still look out for that boy and he hates that. but i dont care. i moved past him though. he taught me how to not really let guys get the best of me too fast. i consider him a mentor and my mom actually likes him, ugh! but i had to get that off of my chest. no more tears, no more wondering. im done and im happy :) i grew up, finally.