past. Present. FUTURE.

i couldn’t ever change even if i wanted to. despite the trials and tribulations i have faced, i have always been exuberant. i love my life and family even if they do seem ignorant at the time. my depiction of love has seemed to crush every hope and dream that i could ever imagine of it. soo i dont look for it. i look for friendship and happiness. as far as friends go, i dont trust them. but i love them. because even if they are putting up a front, at least they have my back when i need them. i cant wait for the Lord to bless me. He tells me that i have to want it for myself and with hardwork and perseverance (and a blessing), i can achieve anything. in the past, i was insecure. in the Present, i got stronger and wiser. in the FUTURE, i will be astounding, marvelous, cultivated, ME.

When Im Gone ..

well a new site has caught my attention, thats why i have parted from my beloved blog. you can find my on TUMBLR.
http://mytruthsekai.tumblr.com/
yeaaa but i have a NEW friend, i enjoy his conversation. not gonna name any names, bitches are nosey. but for the record i dont want to get serious with anyone, relationships need too much attention. and im not willing to sacrifice my "ME" time for some "WE" time just yet. butttt yea just checking in. love ya, miss me a little when im gone.

Females are taking OVER

alphabetical PHOBIAS

Atychiphobia(fear of failure)
Brontophobia(fear of thunder and lighting)
Contreltophobia(fear of sexual abuse)
Dementophobia(fear of insanity)
Epistaxiophobia(fear of nosebleeds)
Fibriphobia(fear of fever)
Gerascophobia(fear of growing old)
Hadephobia(fear of hell)
Isolophobia(fear of solitude)
Judeophobia(fear of Jews)
Katagelophobia(fear of ridicule)
Lilapsophobia(fear of tornadoes and hurricanes)
Merinthophobia(fear of being tied up)
Necrophobia(fear of death)
Oneirogmophobia(fear of wet dreams)
Panthophobia(fear of suffering)
No Q's
Rhytiphobia(fear of getting wrinkles)
Satanophobia(fear of Satan)
Taphephobia(fear of being buried alive)
U's are STUPIDDD
Virginitiphobia(fear of rape)
Wiccaphobia(fear of witchcraft)
Xenophobia(fear of strangers)
No Y's
Zelophobia(fear of jealousy)

Captain Save A Hoe

LMAO. mann i've come to learn that i like to be needed. i want people to need and want me. call me crazy or call me selfish but I DONT CARE! honestly, when people see me they think im the most stuck up bitch in the universe .... so not true. i am very independent and i tend to not say EVERYTHING on my mind. because iont like hurting peoples feelings (that much). but now im tired of everybody using me as a step stool, i have FEELINGS TOO you know. damn. so now me and my hunnie have been just going ham because people just dont know how to act. straight like that!

SPOTLIGHT aint nothing without ya

Leading Ladies

Antoinette Lee

my Nette and my hunnie. its funny how life works out. when we heard of each other .. she didnt like me and i didnt like her. but now look at us! i love this girl because she extremely easy to conversate with (if she likes you), she speaks her mind and she soooo GORGEOUS! i treat her like a bestfriend and a sister but she's way more than that. i understand this girl and her little high pitched voice lol .. and she's made me understand a lot about the so-called people i call friends. she'll go on you in your face and wont care and thats what i love. her smile is inspirational! and if you dont like her .. then you're on drugs. cause she's the best. i put her before EVERYONE now.

Rolanda Taylor

mann where to start with her? we've hurt each other way too much and its sad and im sorry. this is my princess. i dont see why i ever let her go before. if i stop believing in her, she'll give up on herself and life and i cant do that to her. she very smart and beautiful but her flaw is that she wants everyone to be her friend and i told her many times .. thats a Big NO-NO! cause everybody tries to bring her down and i dont be rockin! iont like when people take advantage of anyone or her in particular. my focus is all on her .. im tired of these kids out here thinkin they're grown and ready. cause no one is ever ready for the unexpected. i love my Lonnie and ima take care of her. this is my princess ♥ we'll be alright.

people dont understand the decisions i make because they obviously dont understand me. these two girls have put me through everything and i still LOVE them! i cut off a lot of friends because they are no good and arent doing anything for themselves to succeed and that bothers me. honestly me and my sister raina are falling off .. i just dont see eye to eye with her and she's starting to piss me off. she seems too dependent if you ask me. if you want something bad enough .. you'll go after it. point black period. i still love my MAYA and ONI and even ALEXIS but these are my leading ladies. thats their titles .. everyone else doesnt fall under the "Leading" category. so wipe your tears and try harder. im tired so check my twitter or youtube or phone.

ACCOMPLISHED

Brittany's Party? Success!
Alexis' Party? A Hit Baby!

if show stoppin is wrong, i DONT wana be right. im glad my enjoyment out weighed my stress. MANNNNN when i have a party (IF i have a party) people will get ONE notification, and thats IT. everything you'll ever need will be with what i give you .. darn dipshits! man people callin me, stressin me out "can i have a ride?" "what time the party end?" "whats the address?" HOL' UP SLIM! this isnt my PARTY .. ask the person whom the function has been thrown for. oh yea .. it always seems as though EVERYTIME we show up somewhere .. its DRY! sorry to say but we're the life of the party! and I love my hunnie because we make a great team :) my light skin babyyyy lol. omg Omg OMG NEVER EVER EVER play truth or dare after a party, people dont know how to behave. buttttttt my back hurts. i've been partyin for TWO days straight for my girls sooo its time for me to REST! sorry for not blogging for the past two days, shit was hectic. had to do it though for SIERRA!

Happy BIRTHDAY SIERRA! You Better showOUTTTTT owwwe ;)

we DID